This weekend 6 years ago I made the proclamation before my church to give my life to Jesus. I was baptized and this began what can only be called an adventure, my adventure with Him.
I think adventure is a good word because it brings with it excitement, uncertainty, joy, and a whole lot of unknown. All things that are experienced when walking with Jesus. As with any adventure I have definitely taken some wrong turns and wound up in some places that I shouldn’t have been, but thank goodness for grace and a reminder that He disciplines those He loves.
“My son, do not despise the Lord’s discipline, and do not resent his rebuke, because the Lord disciplines those he loves, as a father the son he delights in.” Proverbs 3:11-12 NIV
For a long time, though, I didn’t like that I didn’t grow up in the church, that I didn’t know Jesus my whole life, or that I really had no knowledge at all about the Bible, minus believing that someone in there it said God hated me. It felt like I had missed out, especially with youth group and church camp!
Recently, however, I realized that because I didn’t grow up in the church there was a whole lot that I had to unlearn before I could relearn it. You can grow up hearing things interpreted one way, following the doctrine the church believes in, and not know that there are other ways of understanding those things. This can be a tricky topic but not something that isn’t true.
In realizing this I was thankful for how my story has played out, even if it meant encountering Jesus later in life. I thought I was in the clear from all that comes with understanding something one way and then realizing that what I’ve understood may not be correct. That was just silly of me to think!
There is still unlearning and relearning that has to take place, but it’s with who I am and how I see myself rather than church doctrine or Scripture interpretation. A new realization came to me tonight about how I see myself that has been with me for as long as I can remember. It’s something I am now aware of and surrendering to Him as it comes up, seeking Him for healing in that area, and for eyes that see me like He does.
No matter how our paths have led us to Jesus; entire lives in the church, or a newly found Savior that was once so foreign, I believe unlearning and relearning is a part of all our stories. I believe it’s something that can bring us together, as sisters in Christ, as we learn we aren’t alone in this process. And that is my prayer for us, that in this process we would know this is for our good and that we aren’t alone in it. That through this the new creation we’ll become more and more evident and all glory will go to Jesus for His transforming power within us. Amen!